I don’t know what’s going on with my life right now.Hols is almost end and I am sure I am ready to spend crazy hours locking up myself in the library again when uni lyfe finally starts.Remember my resolution tho?I am going to make it.I am going to finish my readings and learn a lot of things although a month has nearly pass and yet I still haven’t finished a single book yet whoah.Me so strong-willed heh?

Well anyway I am still struggling to finish The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson because everybody keeps on saying about how good it is.I think I will pick up a copy of Jodie Picoult again this year but nor sure sih just hope for the best for me.

Watched Victorious series several nights ago not sure when because I feel like I have lost track of time ,can barely distinguish a day from another.I also feel emotionally unstable and weird,maybe meditation will help?Please comment bellow if you have any advice!Thanks!

PS:Just read this and found it hilarious!!!


100 Truths About Me

So hellow peeps I am back here,typing in the middle of the night…woops no actually this is 1 30 AM already but yeah whatever.Things have gone weird and somehow just feel wrong in my life these days so in status quo I dont give a shit.I am tired of keeping everything in control.I am tired.So here I am being very unhealthy with my crazy haphazard sleeping schedule.I am being random again now which I have never been for maybe almost this whole semester right?Since I finally filled up my brain and let people tell me what and how to write ‘a good writing’blah.

But anyway,I just realized that although you might have been following this blog and being an avid reader for almost 4 years now,you still actually never feel like you truly know me except the fact that I have a crazy mood swing.So this is why when I saw this 100 Truth About Me Post in Selina’s blog(which she stole from her sister’s blog) I decided to also stole it and post my own version of it here.I dont feel like doing further ramblings so here we go…

1. Last beverage: plain water,my life is so boring
2. Last phone call: i loathe phone calls so obviously no phone
3. Last text message: well it was an online order to Buttercup_sby (it is an online shop and i need a new brow pencil because mine has been run out since last december)
4. Last song you listened to: Havana-Camilla Cabello
5. Last time you cried: on my second day of my last period which is happen to be last week lol
6. Dated someone: no and i am 18 now lol
7. Been cheated on: haha no
8. Kissed someone and regretted it: you can’t regret something you never did
9. Lost someone special: so far no
10. Been depressed: this is how i spend my life all of my avid readers must have known
11. Been drunk and threw up: yes
12: Rose gold in status quo -but this is changing over the time no kidding
13: Different Shades of grey (im dead serious im so pathetic)
14: Every natural shades like brown,black,tosca,silver,gold,white,etc.
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:(2017 because 2018 has just started)
15. Made a new friend: yes a bunch of new friends but no new best friend
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: yes i think so but i cant remember
18. Met someone who changed you: NO
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Haha yes and this is crazy I was in the toilet stall doing my business and then a bunch of friends got in and talked very loudly about me!They didnt even know I was there so I was just sitting inside awkwardly and waited until they all gone before coming out because of course I couldnt just come out right in front of their noses right?this is so ridiculous I have a weird sense of humor.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: so far no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: haha idk seriously i have so many people on that list lol but know almost no one maybe haha
23. How many kids do you want: I never actually think about this and this kinda surprise me since i am always overthink everything
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: Yess
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I bought some trays of sushi and brought them to school for my circle of friends to enjoy
27. What time did you wake up today: 9:00 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping.I went to bed early last night.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my life to finally begin
30. Last time you saw your Mother: like 3 hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my race and my genes,i know this is sad and sounds ungrateful but really iam just being honest
32. What are you listening to right now: Closer-The Chainsmoker
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:humh no
34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now: haha how if they read?
35. Most visited webpage: google
36. Whats your real name: Joana.That’s all.
37. Nicknames: Jo or Joan
38. Relationship Status:i feel empty
39. Zodiac sign: Pisces
40. Male or female: Female
41. Primary School: YPPI IV
42. Secondary School: Petra 3
43. High school/college: Petra 2
44. Hair color: dark dark brownish with a slightly bleached blond at the bottom
45. Long or short: it’s an armpit length by now
46. Height: 157 cm 😦 yes iam a midget so sad
47. Do you have a crush on someone: im not so sure i told you i am lost
48. What do you like about yourself: I am a hard worker and a perfectionist in a way
49. Piercings: none.yes you read it right-NONE.
50. Tattoos: none at the moment
51. Righty or lefty: right handed
52. First surgery:none
53. First piercing: NONE
54. First best friend: Natasha
55. First sport you joined: idk running maybe
56. First vacation:to a place looks like a mountainous area when I was still a small annoying baby i cant recall
58. First pair of trainers: cant recall sorrey
59. Eating:nothing
60. Drinking:nothing atm
61. I’m about to: i am about to make a hot cocoa drink because my stomach feels weird
62. Listening to: the buzzing sound of my computer
63. What time is it: 02:26
64. Want kids:maybe i dont know my future seems so blurry and dim
65. Get married: i hope so but again nothing is so sure right now
66. Career: I want to have a career in branding or advertising or maybe working as a foreign country embassy
67. Lips or eyes: lips of course
68. Hugs or kisses:kisses lol
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms!I judge boys from their arms and i often randomly crushing strangers and get myself into trouble just by staring at their beautiful firm arms omg what am i talking about
73. Sensitive or loud: i am not loud nor sensitive but i guess my tendency is more into sensitive rather than loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
76. Kissed a stranger: nah
77. Drank hard liquor: yes but that was only vodka,is that hard liquor by your definition?
78. Lost glasses/contacts: always happen lol i lost my glasses 3 times and my contacts once-story of my life
79. Sex on first date: humh it depends on the situation like in what country am i living or am i on birth pills or not and many other things like that to be considered
80. Broken someone’s heart: yes but i didn’t mean it
82. Been arrested: nah
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: so far no
85. Fallen for a friend: yes
86. Yourself: not really iam insecure
87. Miracles: yes under certain circumstances
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: never
91. Kiss on the first date: yes
92. Angels: yes
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today: nope
96. Ever cheated on somebody: so far no wkwk and iam not planning to
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: 22 Feb 1999
98. The moment you would choose to relive: 3rd grade and 4th grade of elementary school and year 8 junior high
99. Are you afraid of falling in love:yes
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: nope

PS:this is so funny i finally found somebody who is more random than me wakakkaka

I was Cats when i was younger but then i turned into Victorious Jade after i hit puberty its strange to think how people can change drastically in a really short period of time.

Funny Little Thing Called Life


If I will ever write a book I think that will be the title.I don’t know what is wrong with me but I obviously know that there must be something.I mean,you don’t feel constantly exhausted both physically and mentally right?

I woke up with my head throbbing terribly today.My whole body aches and I can’t think clearly.I know that last night was new year eve but no,I didn’t drink.So this is not a hangover.This is just me being me.Pathetic me.

It seems like I have been in a hangover or an existencial crisis for my whole life.I feel lost and I want to disappear.To vanish into the air.Just like that.

But since I obviously can’t do that I have to act like a grown up and face my life.This is why I got into here from the first place and planned out my 2018 new year resolution.Here we go…

1.Finish Mankiw

2.Publish a work on Wattpad

3.Break once in a debate competition with me fully participating and not just being a burden for my team mates.There is a phrase in Chinese for this 滥竽充数-be there to just fill up the number.

4.Exercise regularly

5.Spend less time on electronic device

6.Eat healthier,reduce my sugar intake

7.Try not to get irritated or angry easily for things I cant even explain

8.Try to forgive my past and deal with them as a part of me and my history.

9.Read more books about travel

Hopefully I will survive this other year and be able to get out of this little funny game called life unscratched,see you next time!