The Geek is Back

Dear readers,I know I have been posting regularly on my blog now uwahh,despite the fact that I should like really studying now *actually but yah my mood is so gross and I feel so angry.I feel like I can burst into thousand pieces now and burn away with my temper.I don’t know why my mood swing is so annoying 24/7.I blame hormone fluctuation for this.Ugh.Okay so the point is that I miraculously now become a good blogger *not really pls Jo what’s good enough in your ramblings?* because this writing keep me sane,it gives me something to do.It gives me satisfaction.I’m currently re-reading a novel by a local writer Perahu Kertas.This is my first time re-reading novel!Maybe this sounds weird I mean I keep on hearing from everybody else that they keep on re-reading their favorite novels again and again but I have tendency to continuing the story with my imagination inside my head rather than re-reading what I have finished before.This time the case is different,I read Perahu Kertas a long time ago,back when I was still in the 7th grade and I actually was never really borrow it.I was just read it whenever I went to the library,day by day,pages by pages.So,I lost the plot although I remember that good feeling when you are reading a good book.I was just like ‘’ and went with the flow.I was also often lost the plot in the middle of the story because after I read a few chapters the day before,the next day I suddenly found another book that was so interesting for me to read yeah I left the novel abandoned for a loong time until one day I scanned the rack and continue my reading again.Sometimes it took time for me to recall the last scenes I have read but then I finally finished it.Ahaha I’m really a rambler,aren’t I??

I had a youtube video marathon yesterday and for the first time in my life I watch Zoella’s vids and to be completely honest I don’t like her videos at all.She is a rambler on you tube and I’m too impatient to hear her talking about her new shades and brushes.For any of her fans who are reading this NO HARD FEELINGS everybody has their own opinions.I also found an amazing channel by Lilly Singh-Superwoman.I love her.She is ludicrous and smart and open minded oh how I’m dying to meet more people like her in real life…

Steph’s party was just like another parties.Maybe dark places with loud music and crazy lightnings are just never been my thing.I dressed up like a hippie .I didn’t mean it to be like that but I was happy with the result tho.I wore my black jumpsuit with white stripes and slippers and a headband with artificial pears and flowers on my corolla.And everybody was keep on staring looking at me as if they were asking the unspoken question:”Who is this girl getting lost in a party like this?”

I got this pict from Katina’s blog and it doesn’t make sense to me.I mean I’m crying and screaming like a baby to my pillows every night and I also feel like nobody ever get me but what do you mean by real girls??Of course I’m a real girl,I’m not the Plastics you know that.

this doesn't make sense to me

this doesn’t make sense to me

I’m also quite love this song :

Or maybe I simply love Birdy?I don’t know.See ya,I should go back studying.
PS: The party theme was Alice in Wonderland but I changed it myself into Alice in Hippie Land


Full yet Futile

What happened this weeK:
1.There was bomb in Jakarta and the situation it’s not getting easier,more or less it really has effects on my life here in Surabaya.I found it funny that the plot of the tragedy resembles the plot of The Atlantis Gene by AG Riddle( that book which I have promised you to write the review asap since last year haha).Everybody is feeling insecure,horrified,yeah by this I mean everybody but me.The bombings weren’t only in my country tho,Turkey and Paris had to deal with it too.I don’t know you may call me crazy but this is what I think: We all know that our world is declining and nothing is going to get better so you better accept this and prepare yourself for the worst thing.This is just not for people in certain countries,this is for all of us who live on planet earth,I tell you anxiety is like a rocking chair-it gives you something to do but it doesn’t move you anywhere.So just stay calm and live your daily life as if nothing happened.
2.I’m being moody and get angry easily.This isn’t normal because my mood is basically sad and miserable but I hardly irritated and angry but here’s the fact-I get annoyed very easily like a cranky grandpa!
3.I was late last Friday and last Monday and I also entered my religion class late because I was just too exicited discussing The Diary of Anne Frank with Pini in the library last Tuesday.It’s not my habit to come late on classes but yeah.I didn’t miss anything important tho,the teacher just ask us to watch The Shopaholic seriously because she is gonna give us test based on the story but since I have read the book already I don’t need the movie as well.
4.I’m preparing for a party.I don’t want to say a word about this because everything is just still uncertain.I just hope that it will turn out so enjoyable and memorable.*i know u are wondering what on earth makes me organizing a party but this is another long story i will tell you when everything is getting better
5.Finally my Chinese Test result is out and tell you what: I nearly reach the full score! 298/300!Imagine it!I can’t be any happier but still there are still many other stuffs to stress about
6.I often wonder why people we least want to know somehow always manage a way to come across our paths and intruding our lives.It sounds so blurry but I can’t explain more clearly because the person maybe is reading this right now
7.Cinthya invited me to her farewell before she leave for Korea( she even wrote me letter behind the invitation card,and oh all of those nice words!).I just wish u all the best luck dear!I’m sorry if i have ever pissed you off these few past years.
8.Tomorrow is Stephanie birthday party and I have to do my online ecology test on the morning so I certainly don’t want to have baggy eyes and a half functioning brain,I have to sleep,good night!I wish you a sweet dream,sincerely.


This video is true af

2015 Top 5 Books

this is the quickest edit i have ever made,swear!So forgive the quality

this is the quickest edit i have ever made,swear!So forgive the quality

This should have been posted on 31 of Dec 2015 but I was run out of time so here we go,this is my very first post in 2016 instead of my very last post!As I have said before in my last post,this last year I was suck in reading novels.I only read 22 books in a year,so far away from my actual goal of 55 books aye.But no tears,not anymore.This is new year!New hope,new targets!I am going to rate top 5 books from 22 books I have read.This rate is based on my own opinion,just like usual.I hope this will be useful for those who is looking for reference.


picture creds to I'm too lazy to do any edits teehee

picture creds to
I’m too lazy to do any edits teehee


The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
This book emphasizes my life in words!A must read for every high school student and those who consider their selves as geeks,wallflowers,nerds,or whatever you call it.
2.sing you home


Sing You Home by Jodie Picoult
Picoult is now officially become my favorite International author.I have to confess here that I haven’t finished the whole book,a few pages to go just because I have that’I want to finish this book but I don’t want to finish this book’feeling,if you are a reader you will understand.I will review this book as soon as I finished it.This book brings up homosexuality and Religion issues as the main topic.And we all know that this is also a trending international topic these past few years,esp last year after homosexual marriages became legal in the US.Jodie is so smart and open minded,her writings prove it!
3.the tenth circle


The Tenth Circle by Jodie Picoult
Jodie again.I feel that I have a connection with the main character,Trixie Stone because we have so many similarities!From the way our families behave,run the household,our problems,and once again Jodie point of view about life is the same as mine.*Trixie’s daily life,mum,dad,and best friend and her ex share so many similarities with mine,I can’t write more specific in case they are is reading this who knows.This story should be read by anyone who had known the hurt of broken family and how difficult it is to mend everything. sister keeper
My Sister Keeper by Jodie Picoult


Again.I’m sorry.I have mention that I can’t be normal when I love something ,haven’t I?Yeah.Here it is.Jodie’s master piece.Everybody may have known this but I promise you the novel is actually far better than the film.For those who haven’t even hear a word about this story:it is about a girl who has an elder sister with leukemia and read the rest yourself!
5.lan fang


Perempuan Kembang Jepun by Lan Fang
For my english readers: this is a book my a local writer in my country so the book is only available in Indonesian
Perempuan Kembang Jepun means Woman from The Kembang Jepun Street
Kembang Jepun is a historical street in my town.It used to be a china town in Surabaya.The story tells about a Japanese Geisha who was stranded in Kembang Jepun during Japan colonization in Indonesia and how she fell in love with a native worker and left her child behind when the war is over and she had to return to her country.
I will tell you if this book has been translated.
For my readers who understand Bahasa no matter where you are : Go grab this book!

It’s enough for today.I’m being useless today.Waking up at 11,made salad for my own brunch,then I watched At The Heart of The Sea stared by Brad Pitt who is unbelievably good-looking ,and spent the whole night doing nothing productive until I get here.Last,now,I am surprisingly already feeling drowsy so goodnight!*ps:school is near already ughhh