A LOT OF THINGS HAD HAPPENED.
The day after I logged in here (Saturday, May 12th 2018) there was churches bombing in my city. I live in Surabaya for those who are wondering. I went to Church that morning like what I usually do for these 19 years of life. The entrance door was closed. There wasn’t any sign there explaining what’s happening. I then just wandering outside like an idiot until a man came and told me,” No service today. Bombing everywhere this morning, right?” I never opened my phone or watched the news on Sunday Morning so obviously my mind went blank at that moment. I hadn’t heard it yet-the news about the bombing and everything.
What was actually happening here? No one knows. It can be just pure terrorism where a group of people with extreme radical belief actually want to kill themselves altogether with the-kafir (this is what they call people who have different belief from them) so that they can be accepted in heaven or kind of. Or it can actually be caused by several political reasons. The next presidential election is next year and bad shocking things usually happen before elections here in my country lol. There are HELLA LOT of speculations going on the media but I don’t give a fuck anymore. I feel like the older I get the more apathetic I become. I remember when I was still in the elementary school I read the news every single day and I watch the news on TV every night too! But now? LOL just keep the news headlines away from me they give me constant headaches and my stomach twitches every time I turn on the news on TV. The news scare me. They give me nosebleed!
We have been dwelling in a climate of fear for the whole week. Last Monday our Uni decided to dismiss class earlier since there was another bombing in a nearby police station at 8 AM that morning. I remember going to the computer lab trying to print out some of my paperwork while all of the staffs there were staring at the TV screen playing the video of the bombing happened few minutes ago in the same area with our campus building. For my whole freaking weird life living in this country, never once I experienced such terror. I was not afraid but I was very angry. I couldn’t have my reading class because of this bombing and this is not the first time in my life I feel my rights are being violated and I can do nothing about it. The atmosphere was suffocating. everybody was scared. I and a group of friends actually had already planned a birthday surprise for a friend who had just celebrated birthday few days before. The planned failed because a lot of my friends didn’t come to campus that day and because the ones who were in campus were to terrified to cross the street to buy the cake at the bakery. Once again I was VERY ANGRY. Nobody wants to live in this climate of fear, nobpdy but you can’t change things that already happened.
The 2 next day I attended a very amazing seminar. Seven famous politicians were invited to that seminar and it was so damn good. I lovee it. I skipped grammar and poetry but no regrets.
And then on Saturday here came the craziest news ever…
All of you must have known how much I love Dee as an author, about how much I lovee Supernova series. And this Saturday I am going to spend the whole weekend with her learning about creative writing!!! I am dying!!!!
So there was this announcement about workshop with Dee. We have to submit a short story and 10 chosen participant can join the workshop. I didn’t expect I can get in since I was in a hurry and not in the mood of writing when I finished my story but wtheck I AM SCREAMING.
You probably has heard this from my last post that my life has been so CRAZILY CRAZY these past weeks. I don’t what to feel. I don’t know if I should be happy or sad or angry. I just don’t know.
There is still a lot of thing I want to share here but I still have to finish an essay deadline and I am running out of time so byeee!!!!